January: Community

One year ago in January, I felt a pull amidst the current darkness and chaos of the world to create a place for connection. So, I started a monthly open-house potluck with neighbors in an effort to forge stronger bonds in our very immediate community. Over the course of the year, the gathering has grown and grown (in classic Katie fashion), welcoming familiar and new faces each month. 

In the year that has gone by, our neighborhood has become a place where waves, greetings, and stopping to catch up with one another has become commonplace. Bonds have been built outside of our potlucks, friendships have been formed. A reinforcement that we all need a place for connection. 

It seems almost serendipitous then that this month, life - much less any of these 40 for 40 items - would have been impossible without the help of our community. 

We kicked off 2026 with Bryan getting absolutely pummeled by Flu A. He spent nearly a week quarantined in our bedroom in hopes of sparing the children. Many months prior, not knowing the flu would take Bryan out of the equation, Maddie and I had scheduled our day-date to the theater to watch a performance of Frozen. The day would have been absolutely impossible without our neighbors who rallied together at the last minute to watch Tobin for an afternoon. Because of their compassion, Maddie got to dress up in her princess dress, sing her favorite Frozen songs, and meet Elsa IRL after the performance. 

Later in the month, Tobin was able to have his day-date of riding the bus around Boulder (he’s a big bus and car guy right now) and eating chocolate muffins because of the kindness and willingness of our community to dedicate time to hang and build baking soda volcanoes with Maddie. Tobin was absolutely delighted by each and every other bus (screaming “Mom! There’s a BUS!!!”) that drove by our bus. 

Since the beginning of this challenge, our neighbors have never stopped asking “when’s a good day next month we can come over and hang with the kids so you can have your date night?”. They have spent many evenings watching kids movies and staying up way past their own bed times so Bryan and I could make space for our monthly dates.

This 40-for-40 project began in part to experience new things, but what makes it special is connecting to you all (neighbors, friends, and family) throughout it all. You’ve shared yourselves with me through your challenges and you’ve also given of your time and energy so I can complete them. You’ve gone on training hikes and bike rides with me, you’ve planned and booked our shared tasks, you’ve given me ideas to move my children’s book forward, you’ve been gracious in receiving gratitude and explanation of the impacts you’ve had on my life, you’ve shared deep feelings, hopes, and dreams in “purple couch” conversations.  

To say that I’ve had tears brought to my eyes by the generosity of you all - my dearest community - would be an understatement. (Let’s be real, I’ve straight ugly cried on more than one occasion). You all make the world brighter. Onward to February! 

Tasks finished this month (for those of you following along on the list): 

Attend a theater performance

1-on-1 date (or trip) with each kid

Take a sushi making class 

5 out of 12 monthly date nights 

16 out of 50 weekly impact calls

10 of 40 “purple couch” conversations

3 of 40 written memories

December: Bird by Bird

There is a story of a school-aged boy who receives a large project to write a report on birds in the world. The boy is completely overwhelmed, in tears over the sheer magnitude of the project. Eventually, his father sits down with him, providing advice on how to approach the report: “take it bird by bird, buddy. Bird by bird”. 

This concept of “bird by bird” has echoed through December.

A bit of background: there have been countless times in my life where I’ve not pursued a hobby, project, or something I’m interested in for being too overwhelmed. I instantly mentally spiral into all the logistics (what gear do I need, what do I need to learn quickly, should I go back to school for it, should I find myself a mentor, is this a future job) and the what-ifs (what if I put in time and effort and hate it, what if I’m not good at it out of the gate, what if I actually am good at it and have to reevaluate all other things?). 

This 40-for-40 project has given me the space to throw all that out the window. Instead of feeling isolated in setting my own goals, I’m accountable to you all for sampling the things you’ve assigned and channel you all while doing them (my favorite part of every task!). I’ve been able to approach each item from a place of freedom and joy instead of anxiety. Man oh man is it refreshing! (Even the animal spirit card I pulled at a somatic breath work class got the memo.)

I checked off “play a song on the piano” this month. I have wanted to learn how to play the piano for close to 20 years, but never made the time because it felt so big. Looking back to August when this task truly kicked off, I really only knew the note middle C. Since then, I’ve downloaded a piano instruction app on my phone and practiced 15 to 30 minutes a day for the better part of 16 weeks. I’ve come out with a number of (easy) songs, including my all-time favorite Christmas song, and genuinely look forward to sitting down to play. 15 minutes a day. Bird by bird. 

This month I also went back to dance class at a local studio to learn a hip hop sequence. While I’ve danced off and on most of my life, I’ve not been to class since before the pandemic so my skills were rusty. It took nearly the entire class to get out of my head about how I “should” be dancing and instead remind myself to break it into bite-sized bits, don’t be afraid to ask questions to understand more, and enjoy the flow. Eight counts at a time. Bird by bird. 

Looking ahead to this spring and summer, there are extremely physical tasks: rock climbing a Flatiron, hiking the skyline traverse, bike touring. Things I simply cannot do off the couch, December kicked off chipping away at the fitness of it all this month. Easily digestible sessions at the rock climbing gym, 30 minute runs, 20 minute lifting workouts. Bird by bird. 

I’ve also been working on my children’s book since August, a monumental effort. December marked working through feedback from an editor, choosing how I’d like to publish it, and determining physical details of the book - from page weight to size to cover type. I also received some amazing image drafts of my main character from the insanely talented illustrator I’m working with. One word at a time, one page at a time. Bird by bird. 

I can’t quite put into words the immense impact this outlook has had on me - it’s something I’ve not been able to unlock on my own for nearly 40 years. Turns out, I needed your help to flip on the light switch in my brain and heart and push me to let go of the anxiety I was holding onto in order to take the first step in things I never ever would have tried before. I am forever grateful, in the deepest parts of my being, to all of you for giving me this gift.

Onward to January! 

Tasks finished this month (for those of you following along on the list): 

Hip hop dance class - learn a full sequence

Learn to line dance/two step

Take a somatic breath work class

Learn a song on the piano

4 out of 12 monthly date nights 

13 out of 50 weekly impact calls

7 of 40 “purple couch” conversations

3 of 40 written memories

November: Learning to be a Better Surfer

One of the challenges I’ve been enjoying most is calling someone once a week and telling them the impact they’ve had on my life. Every single call has inevitably had a moment of tears from me (no surprise). Most of my calls have been to people I haven’t kept in regular touch with over the years, which inevitably leads to a wonderful catch up (also no surprise). In a number of calls, I have received words of wisdom - small treasures, really - that really make my brain tickle or give me an anchor to keep hold of (these always surprise me).

In one of my recent calls, a very dear friend dropped one such nugget of gold: “Life is all about learning to be a better surfer. Sometimes you hit the wave head on, sometimes you let the wave pass, sometimes you dive under the wave, and sometimes you get to ride the wave.”  

November started out great! I took a phenomenal pottery class with some neighbor friends. We made a date night of it - dinner, drinks, and two of the three of our first time wrangling clay (I’m 100% sure that’s NOT pottery slang). I managed to come out of the class with two small bowls, both of which I kept and am VERY excited to use once I get them back from the Pottery Lab.

And then, the November wave hit – hard. A rotating door of illnesses swept through the house: strep throat, fevers, colds, stomach bugs (yes, plural), and pink eyes (again, plural). Work picked up drastically. Tobin protested bed time and naps and just sleep in general. Plans to accomplish challenges squashed. 

Honestly, I spent a good chunk of the month annoyed. But, as all solid words of wisdom do, I couldn’t shake “life is all about learning to be a better surfer”. I was getting caught in the eddies of not following my plan, feeling the self-imposed pressure of falling behind, and letting myself spiral (I know, I’m mixing surfing and kayaking metaphors). I was being a terrible surfing student, trying to push against the weight of the ocean as if I could move it myself.

I’m coming to realize that a major part of aging really means gaining enough wisdom to recognize the patterns of our mental/emotional traps in hopes of escaping them more quickly so we’re able to enjoy riding more of the waves. The Type A, first born daughter, planner, Virgo perfectionist in me wanted to do more, stick to my plan. But the wave hit me head on, so what I can do for the months (and really, life) ahead is practice letting it go and remember that other waves are coming - some of which I’ll get to ride and feel in the flow again. 

Onward to December! 

Tasks finished this month (for those of you following along on the list): 

Pottery class

3 out of 12 monthly date nights 

10 out of 50 weekly impact calls

6 of 40 “purple couch” conversations

3 of 40 written memories

BONUS SECTION: We did get to see (with the naked eye!) the Northern Lights here in Boulder this month and it. was. AWESOME!

October: Past, Present, and "Who I'm Becoming"

October is for birthdays in our house. In addition to basically an entire month of celebrations, I did manage to complete some challenges (for those of you following along on the list). I spent a really lovely kid-free afternoon at Strawberry Hot Springs in Steamboat with my mom (challenge #1). We got to spend a whole bunch of quality time together hiking and relaxing in the hot spring pools below the golden glow of the few remaining aspen leaves. It was dreamy.

Fueled by birthday cake sugar and the official passage of another year around the sun for Bryan and the kids, October also became the month the idea of aging hit me right between the eyes.  

While recording a video conversation about our friendship (challenge #2), one of the questions we discussed was “In what ways has our friendship shaped who each of us is becoming.” Becoming. Becoming. Who am I becoming? The phrase invites you to envision and intentionally work toward the person you want to be. I have to be honest, I clammed up a bit. 

We ask Maddie and Tobin, “what do you want to be when you grow up?”. As expected, the answer is centered around jobs - or being Elsa from Frozen. But how do you decide who you want to become when you’re entering middle-age?

I have long-known about myself that the unknown, that the concept of the “sky is the limit” or “the possibilities are endless” overwhelms me - there’s a famous family story that I cried when I turned 10 because I “didn’t know what double-digits would feel like”. I am a root-planter, a feet-firmly-on-the-ground kind of gal. I often focus more on who I am in this present moment and how I arrived here instead of dreaming of possibilities with my head in the clouds. My gratitude practices often focus on who and what helped shape the “today” me. 

After our conversation, I spent half of October wrestling with “who am I going to be”, the future me. What goals should I be setting, when should I start on them, how do I know if I am on the “right” path, is 40 too old to pivot, what if I fail? (< full ownership there’s more therapy work to be done there) 

This month, we also completed our family time capsule (challenge #3) to be opened at Maddie's High School graduation in 2039. As a refresher, a time capsule is a freezing of this moment in time for your future self to revisit. In putting the box together, I giggled a whole bunch over items of our current little-kid life (see Maddie's self-portrait below). But a time capsule is also a vehicle for giving your current self a moment to think about your future. I also did a plethora of envisioning Bryan and I with 18-year old and 15-year old children. I also did PLENTY of ugly crying that our dog Piper wouldn’t be with us by that time (#stillbawling).   

In a letter to my future self, I wrote plenty of comments on my current life status (spoiler: I’m in a super great spot). I also wrote down a few hopes, intentions, goals. I didn’t spend time over-thinking them, I didn’t twist myself into knots about what they “should” be. Instead, I just started writing, and out came my answer to who I want to (and already am) become: someone who is healthy and happy, who has strong relationships with my husband, my family and my friends, who can sit in the warmth of the sunshine, laugh often, and be open to the magic life sends my way. 

In the end, October taught me that this 40-for-40 challenge is a perfect balance of past, present, and future. You all have given me the doorway in which to stand to both look back AND look forward. I can also lean into the trust that the path forward is going to be just fine - even when I have to pivot or fail - because I have you all as my roots.

Onward to November!

Tasks finished this month: 

A day at a hot springs, kid free

Video record a conversation together based on experiences of OUR friendship

Family Time Capsule (to be opened at Maddie’s High School Graduation, 2039)

2 out of 12 monthly date nights 

7 out of 50 weekly impact calls

5 of 40 “purple couch” conversations

September: Through Lines and Magic

On the phone this week, a friend asked me about a deeper facet of this 40 for 40 project: “What’s the message your people are sending you?” (disclaimer: it’s about to get heady). 

There is some magic happening behind the scenes of this journey - everything feels perfectly placed, feels fluid, as if you all, unbeknownst to one another, have crafted a special, life-changing journey for this year. From day one, I’ve done a lot of reflecting on the metaphysical energy and the through lines - beyond just turning 40 - of this whole endeavor. Here’s what keeps coming up:  

Number One: Growing adoration. For the existing beauty in my own life, but also for all of you. What has been an unexpected surprise is the new layer of fondness I develop, the skips of joy in my heart, as I get to know new sides of you all through these tasks. You’re all such cool people. I am in awe of you. I’m forever grateful to call you my community. 

Number Two: Reflections and new beginnings. A full moon paddle board was the first list item I completed of this project, and what a tone the experience set! September’s full moon is known as the Harvest Moon. The moon rose rich amber over the horizon, covered by a partially cloudy night, beautiful in a way no picture could ever capture (side note: one of my favorite John Mayer songs is about living outside of a 3x5). Spiritually, the Harvest Moon symbolizes abundance, gratitude, and completion. It is the transition from summer to autumn, a period of balance between light and dark, and an invitation for reflection, setting intentions, and letting go of old patterns. If that’s not a symbol for this transition into a new era of my life, I don’t know what is! 

Number Three: Human connection is magic. This weekend, a very dear friend and I checked off hiking Mt. Sanitas to watch the sunrise. After a gorgeous sunrise and nearly an hour of solitude at the summit, we were approached by an older man, Curtis. Curtis was handing out hats - these were not just regular hats. These hats are his personal project to spread random acts of kindness, they represent (per his handmade label) “the spirit of what humans can do to change the world.” These hats catalyze human connection. I’ve always believed that (most) people are in the world doing the best they can with what they’ve got. If your heart is open, if you extend your hand (hat in it or not), if you can meet people where they are, magic happens. My weekly impact calls, attending the Connection Lab, and hiking Sanitas gave me the space to breathe and to feel that again - admittedly, it’s been slow to come back since having children and the pandemic and I missed it. You all have reminded me that humans are magical, connecting with them is magical. Humans and their stories carry boundless beauty. As you move through your week this week, take a moment to sit with my favorite Connection Lab question “how connected do you feel in your life?”. If the answer is “not enough” I encourage you to check in with yourself and also give someone a phone call and say hello. 

Tasks finished this month: 

Full moon paddle boarding

Attend a Connection Lab

Hike Sanitas - summit before sunrise 

1 of 12 monthly date nights 

3 of 50 weekly impact calls

40 for 40: it’s going to be a BIG year.

When I told my boss about this challenge, the first question she asked was: “are you staving off a mid-life crisis?” My family genes have women living until close to 100 on both sides, so I’ll save the mid-life crisis for another decade - but her question did prompt me to dig much deeper into why I’m dedicating an entire year to random tasks. 

I’ve thought: maybe because Bryan and I are done building our family and the baby brain fog has finally started to lift or maybe it’s because I have more capacity because I’m off social media. Maybe it’s because I’m currently at a company that allows me emotional space to consider literally anything else besides the startup hustle. 

While all of that is true, the core of this challenge is really about lightness (because we could all use a little more right now, ya know?!) and optimism and connecting with friends and family. It’s about trying new things and being silly and being humbled and crying and belly laughs and big toothy smiles. It’s about experiencing the best parts of being human. 

The original challenge - as I heard it from a friend - was to accept tasks to complete. In true Katie fashion, I needed a connection point to others because that is ultimately what fuels my fire. So, I added my spin: submit a task that means something to you or something we can do together. 

And man, oh, man my people did NOT disappoint. I’ve got adventures of all sorts - some that make my belly tickle (as Maddie would say) from nerves, some that made me cry upon just receiving them, some that will bring me peace and reflective solitude, some that I can already feel the laughs coming out. I’ve shared the list with you all so you can see what I’ll be up to this year. I’ll also be posting regular updates on my progress if you’d like to follow along!

As you read through them, if any inspire you, please feel free to participate! There are a number of items with further detail which I’m happy to share if you’d like to join in. Life is more fun with a community!  

A VERY hearty thank you to those of you who submitted something. My life is so full because of you all. Here’s to 40 (and completing a task every 9.6something days)!